Spending quality time with my hubby always makes my day, I smile for no reason at all, and yes, I still giggle when I'm with him. After six years of married life, the magic is still there, and will always be there. Since I met my hubby, it has always been me, him and us...always us.
This year welcomed us with the greatest blessing we have long been praying for, I am finally pregnant with our first child. But my pregnancy is a difficult one, I need to stay here in Mnaila and being constantly monitored by my doctors, while my hubby is left in the province to tend to our business. Being physically separated from him is extremely difficult. For the longest time, I was so used to being awaken by warm hugs and gentle kisses, And though how busy our day went, we always took time to cook for each other and share warm and even cold meals together. At work, there were good and not so good days, but just knowing that I was going home to a place with so much love and affection was already enough to make my day.
it has been 4 long months since, I am in Manila, and my hubby is left in the province, though visits me here in Manila twice a month. I and our 21 week old baby boy still patiently and anxiously wait for his bi-monthly trip each and every time.
Last Holy week was particularly special because, we had the opportunity to bond, to pray, to
hug, to eat, to enjoy the silence. We explored the metropolis, we ate, we laughed, and when it
was his time to leave again for work, we hugged and cried. Next week, he will be here again,
I look forward to his short trips, because even for just a day, feels like forever...
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Living The Dream
When I was young, I have always envisioned and dreamt of myself getting married to someone who would love me dearly, take good care of me, support me through good times and bad and really enjoy a happy married life... sharing life with someone I can talk to just about anything under the sun, giggling about simple nothings, holding hands until our hairs turn gray.
My parents always emphasized that if I married the wrong person, that would be the end of me, and my happiness would depend on the person I choose to marry. Thus, I tried all means to make my relationship work when I thought I finally met the man of my dreams when I was fresh out of college. But a year later, the relationship crumbled and that left me devastated. I cried until there were no more tears left to shed. I felt bad, so bad not having the relationship last long enough to live out that dream, that wish, that prayer of living a happy married life.
"When God closes a door, He opens a window." This saying may sound so cliche but so true. Just when I thought, love eluded me, love found me. Just a few months after that horrible heartbreak, I met somebody, so good to be true, it felt surreal. He is everything I ever hoped and prayed for and so much more. Most people argued it was love on the rebound, but it wasn't. After 6
happy years, With God's grace, I walked down the aisle, I married my bestfriend, my
sweetheart, my partner for life.
We are now into our sixth year of married life. They say marriage is 1% romance and 99%
tolerance, but I beg to disagree, married life is as sweet as I imagined, I hoped, I prayed it to be. I feel so blessed...God allowed me to live my dream.
My parents always emphasized that if I married the wrong person, that would be the end of me, and my happiness would depend on the person I choose to marry. Thus, I tried all means to make my relationship work when I thought I finally met the man of my dreams when I was fresh out of college. But a year later, the relationship crumbled and that left me devastated. I cried until there were no more tears left to shed. I felt bad, so bad not having the relationship last long enough to live out that dream, that wish, that prayer of living a happy married life.
"When God closes a door, He opens a window." This saying may sound so cliche but so true. Just when I thought, love eluded me, love found me. Just a few months after that horrible heartbreak, I met somebody, so good to be true, it felt surreal. He is everything I ever hoped and prayed for and so much more. Most people argued it was love on the rebound, but it wasn't. After 6
happy years, With God's grace, I walked down the aisle, I married my bestfriend, my
sweetheart, my partner for life.
We are now into our sixth year of married life. They say marriage is 1% romance and 99%
tolerance, but I beg to disagree, married life is as sweet as I imagined, I hoped, I prayed it to be. I feel so blessed...God allowed me to live my dream.
Friday, April 29, 2011
In God's Time
I have so much love in my heart, I love my family, friends and my hubby dearly...except that children used to not fascinate me, in fact they annoy me. I was more inclined to pursue my career, to do well in the world of business, that inspite having met the man of my dreams, the one man I loved the most, I delayed my married plans until I was already in my late twenties. Since I was young, Dad has always taught me to plan everything... when to work, get married and have children. Having married late, I planned to get pregnant right away after we settled down. Not so much because I was finally fond of having kids, but because it was part of the plan.
But God has other plans for me. No matter how we tried, it was simply not happening. We consulted doctor after doctor, specialist after specialist to no avail. 5 years and a miscarriage after, I almost gave up, but my hubby encouraged me to hang on and keep the faith.
After all these years of trying, it suddenly dawned upon me, is my heart ready to love and take care of kids? Late last year, while playing with my niece, I finally saw the beauty, the life, the love, the happiness, an innocent child can give. After spending time with her for a few weeks, unconsciously, my fondness grew into attachment, my attachment into love... that when we were about to leave, I shed a tear.
In that moment, I just knew, God wanted to wait until I was ready. I and hubby conceived our baby a month after. I am on my 20th week now. Though my pregnancy journey took a while, I (and even Dad) painstakingly learned that, there are some things that we really have no control of, no matter how much we try and how hard we plan. In everything, there is a time, a season... Everything happens in God's perfect time.
But God has other plans for me. No matter how we tried, it was simply not happening. We consulted doctor after doctor, specialist after specialist to no avail. 5 years and a miscarriage after, I almost gave up, but my hubby encouraged me to hang on and keep the faith.
After all these years of trying, it suddenly dawned upon me, is my heart ready to love and take care of kids? Late last year, while playing with my niece, I finally saw the beauty, the life, the love, the happiness, an innocent child can give. After spending time with her for a few weeks, unconsciously, my fondness grew into attachment, my attachment into love... that when we were about to leave, I shed a tear.
In that moment, I just knew, God wanted to wait until I was ready. I and hubby conceived our baby a month after. I am on my 20th week now. Though my pregnancy journey took a while, I (and even Dad) painstakingly learned that, there are some things that we really have no control of, no matter how much we try and how hard we plan. In everything, there is a time, a season... Everything happens in God's perfect time.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
The Beautiful Life
There is no better life than waking up each day knowing that I am surrounded with people who loves me dearly. Love is something that I do not need to beg for. I have always been showered with so much love since the day I was born. I feel so blessed to belong to a family who loves me dearly, sincere friends who always stand by me and six years ago, I married my best friend, my sweetheart of almost seven years. His love overwhelms me.
I have so much love to give, because I have so much love in my life. Though my life has its share of ups and downs, trials and triumphs, happiness and frustrations, but God never fails to see me through each and every time.
God balances our lives by giving us enough blessings to keep us happy, enough burdens to keep us humble. Let us enjoy life in all humility. Life is beautiful.
I have so much love to give, because I have so much love in my life. Though my life has its share of ups and downs, trials and triumphs, happiness and frustrations, but God never fails to see me through each and every time.
God balances our lives by giving us enough blessings to keep us happy, enough burdens to keep us humble. Let us enjoy life in all humility. Life is beautiful.